Been sick since Friday; out of school yesterday and today. Today I finally had enough energy to get out of bed. I even showered. Tired again, as expected, but oh well. I can't stay in bed forever. I think I'm on the tail end of H1N1. Yay me.
Thinking a little about expectations, and love. How well do the two go together? Can you love someone without having expectations of them? And can you love only your expectations. Sometimes I think it's all a bit much for me. Already I miss my fantasies a little bit. Sure-- ignorance is bliss, but knowledge is power. And I'd rather be strong than ignorantly happy, but... not all knowledge brings power. Some just brings frustration.
Can you love someone and still want that person to change for you? And if one person cannot love you because he wants you to change for him, can you really love him when you want him to change that one thing-- and love you for who you are?
I say that to love truly is to love for both assets and faults; not despite faults. But certainly not having the capability to love you for who you are is a fault... is it possible to love that? Perhaps I was wrong all along, and perhaps I am a hypocrite. I try not to be...
I think of days past where all was a dream. I don't understand.
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